I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights acim. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Prayer is trading (sharing) a Song of Enjoy and Creation or judgments of the pride based on that which you require (agree with) in the mind. There’s no other way. In the Course, your brain (content) is separate between God and the vanity; and you’re selecting constantly with an area as cause for effect.
Forms (all points of the world) are miscreations showing the ego’s judgmental thought system. We’ve caused it to be up (miscreated this world) and can provide it up any time by solving the mind (forgiveness). Correct prayer needs that modification of your head as Lord has nothing to do with forms.
What Prayer is Not:
Because you are usually determining, everything you request when you wish is what counts. When you plead in prayer to own God repair a form trouble with yet another type problem, you’re asking the ego brain for support (not God). These forms and needs are regarded more important than God’s Enjoy that will remain concealed to the amount you choose the illusion.
All additional points (forms) are needs. Different brands are needs, dreams, status, problems, nausea, individual enjoy (special relationships), gifts and objectives nowadays, etc. They are what you select as replacements for God’s Love and the confidence may pose the goal of prayer by with them to further the illusion. Thus, prayer can’t be about “forms” or “needs” in just about any way.